Tuesday, June 24, 2008
The chisel tip.
Having a child in your life when there was no child in your life before, that is something that changes your life huh?
I had many people tell me that this is the way it would be once Axel was born.
I never thought that I knew better.
How could I?
I never had no baby!
But he has really gelled into my my life so far.
Like someone poured a bottle of honey on my head.
It is sweet, and also temporarily suffocating and something that never happened to me before.
It is hard for me to see how my life has really changed sometimes.
I see it most clearly when I think about the future.
Because I can't see that.
And so I instead look at what I do have, or how things are now.
Then I see what this little boy really is, and what he means.
But you know, it is like Del says at work "do what you can do."
Do you regret things?
I sometimes do.
That is normal though I suppose.
Part of the "human condition".
Sometimes there are just so many things that you can do though.
And you can't do all of it.
And you don't get second chances for most of it.
You hardly ever get those.
This morning the boy as laying flat on his back, totally straight.
HE is so very long.